Category Archives: Depression

I feel dead inside.

I’m going through one of those phases where I don’t feel anything except anxiety or nothingness. The anxiety isn’t the productive kind that has fueled most of my productivity in grad school; it’s the kind where all I can do … Continue reading

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Why does this keep happening?

Two weeks ago, the night before I was leaving for the conference, I got home from lab and ran into my roommate. I keep using different names for my roommates, but whatever. In this post, their names are Lisa and … Continue reading

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My heart hurts

Last night, the person I had been dating for a few months (Lynette) now made it clear that she was no longer interested it me. While we definitely weren’t serious, and I had a feeling since day 1 that she … Continue reading

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Like a beautiful weeping willow, I am spreading my branches

I mentioned last week that I was trying some new things to kick-start myself out of my depression. It was slow-moving at first. I was just going through the motions without really feeling really feeling refreshed, and I felt like … Continue reading

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Hangover guilt

Last Saturday, I went out to the lakeside for beers with a friend, Mandy. I had just gotten out of what was a particularly stressful day in lab, and I also hadn’t slept well all week, so I was planning … Continue reading

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Checking in again (but from a place of knowledge this time)

I mentioned last month (!!) that I need to start writing again for a variety of reasons, but mainly because it’ll help me connect with myself, slow down, and ultimately (hopefully) find happiness and satisfaction. At the very least, it … Continue reading

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Taking a cold, hard look at my life

I did something personal today that it seemed like I haven’t done in a while, so I checked my calendar, and the last time had been exactly a month ago. This realization was scary to me because it reemphasized what … Continue reading

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