Life is all a series of ebbs and flows, and lately I’ve been stuck in a hefty ebb. I guess it started with the recent political climate. I was doing fine until the Senate voted on the Supreme Court nomination, and since then, things have felt bleak and it’s been hard to motivate myself to do anything.
Recently, I’ve been trying to kickstart myself back into high gear. Last Friday, I got my hair cut off, going from below-shoulders-length to a super short pixie. I hoped that going through a drastic outward change would trigger an inward change. It didn’t, but at least I look nicer now.
Normally, making lists helps me get things done when I get like this, but the same list has been staring at me from my white board for the last several weeks with nothing crossed off. At this point, it’s just meaningless marks on the board. I wrote some inspirational quotes on the same board, but those also just faded into the backdrop.
The only other thing I can think of that helps me is to force myself to go through the motions. Our thoughts are connected to our actions, so if thoughts can’t lead to actions, sometimes working in reverse helps. By forcing myself to write right now, I’m hoping I’ll get back into the writing spirit, and once I’m back into that, all else will follow.
I’m also leaving tomorrow for a conference in California, so that might help. I’m traveling alone, so I’ll get to stay in a hotel room by myself (one of my favorite things to do) and treat myself to a nice dinner in solitude (another one of my favorite things to do), with margaritas hopefully.
I also checked out some books from the library. I’ve wormed my way back into my addictive habit of TV-watching, which is dangerous for me because I can’t casually watch TV. If I start watching TV, it’s the only thing I do with my free time, and my brain goes dead, and I feel drained. If none of these other things help, I’m hoping that by reading each night instead of watching TV, I can revive my brain from it’s quiet slumber and eventually I’ll have more of a desire to get back into the game.
Anyway, that’s the plan. What are some of the things you do to get out of your rut?